My Anger Is Rising…

So recently some things have come to my attention. As I have been getting ready to add a new family member into my home (a dog to be specific) I have been researching constantly the best way to treat a dog, train a dog, feed a dog, etc. And I have decided to take the route of positive reinforcement and clicker based training for multiple reasons.

There are amazing benefits of using positive reinforcement with your dog, including:

  • A better bond with your dog. People who yell, hit, smack, or otherwise physically or emotionally intimidate their animal weaken their dog, and force them to submit. Instead of putting their ears back out of happiness, they do it out of fear and submission.
  • Longer lasting results. Sure, beating a dog to submit to your will might work, at least at first. The long term effects can include anxiety, distrust in other humans, aggression, and of course, rebellion.
  • It is science based. Studies show that positive reinforcement is a much better way to go.
  • Cesar Millan is a thing of the past. Almost everyone who owns a dog these days knows that Cesar’s techniques are ineffective, outdated, and plain abuse. He has used shock collars, hitting, submitting with force, and psychological intimidation to control the poor animals. Every owner on his show is just plain stupid and ignorant.

But since I have done so much research, it has come to my attention the neglect that so many dogs face in my area and around the country. Many dogs are neglected a simple WALK which they need for mental and physical stimulation. I see some trapped with nobody there in their yard for 14+ hours with dirty food and hot water (It’s been extremely hot right now where I live) and one of my neighbor’s dogs even forces his poor dogs to sleep outside, with only two beds for THREE dogs, in extreme weather, which has caused me to wake up at 3 AM from their anxious barks.

And that, is not okay.

That makes me furious. The fact that people are so ignorant and psychotic. Would you treat your child the same way? What did that dog do to deserve a life shunned in their yard?

Even as we speak at 9:55 PM their dog is still barking, and has been for the past 20 minutes straight. Not only is that a nuisance to the neighbors trying to sleep but just plain cruelty. I don’t care how damn busy you are, your dogs deserve attention and love, just like your kid.

And, this same neighbor literally uses a shock collar on his dogs to keep them from escaping, which they have escaped about 100 times over the past three years. AND HE WONDERS WHY THEY WERE ESCAPING. THEY WERE TRYING TO GET A BETTER LIFE. Imagine that you are secluded to a backyard the size of a small patio, in 100 degree weather, with absolutely nothing to do for 14+ hours (sometimes your owner doesn’t even come home) and if you even try to escape, you get electrocuted. That poor dog has even escaped twice already WITH THE SHOCK COLLAR ON. She was SO desperate that she just didn’t care about the pain. Now that makes me sick.

I have told multiple people about this neglect but all they say are “Oh, sorry.” Why does nobody seem to care as much as I do? How would you feel if that was you? How would you feel if that was your child?

And the owner has always made excuses, but knows fully well how he treats his animals. I haven’t even seen him pet them ONCE. He has even defended himself multiple times, saying how he’s owned pets for years and that he knows what he’s doing. I think it’s pretty obvious you don’t, dude.

In the end I guess that this is what is considered normal. Leaving your dogs outside all day with nothing to do, (DOGS ARE INTELLIGENT CREATURES, LIKE HUMANS, THAT REQUIRE DAILY MENTAL AND PHYSICAL EXERCISE AND IF NOT GIVEN CAN HAVE SERIOUS CONSEQUENCES.)

I’m not even going to get into how aggressive his dog is and how she has already bitten 3 people. That’s another story. I guess he just doesn’t care if he puts his neighbors at risk…

My main point is… animals need more rights. I am tired of seeing them chained, electrocuted, suffering, bored, barking constantly, and treated like they are toys that the owners can pick up whenever they like. I am tired.

I need more people who care, who can stand up, and who can petition to give more animals rights. Because they don’t deserve the lives that they leave. No animal, big or small, mean or nice, does.

Thank you so much for reading.

Shut Out That Negativity

So, I’d say I’m officially back from my internet break. I really missed blogging, and now that I’m back, I have so many fresh ideas to blog about.

After being offline for a while (no WordPress, Tumblr, Twitter, etc) I learned to do other things that I loved like photography/videography, cooking, meditating, enjoying nature, and being positive.

I noticed this only when I got back, but the internet can be so negative. YouTube is stuffed full with hate comments, everybody is complaining about the celebrity they hate, people are being murdered left and right on the news and I must say, the internet has been a really depressing place.

After learning this, I wanted to reach out to you. Make the internet a better place. Radiate positive vibes. Talk about things that make you smile. Encourage people to live in the moment and to enjoy life. Just go outside and breathe. There are so many things in life to love. This world that we live in is a beautiful thing. We humans just need to realize that. I know that humans will never get along, but can’t we just try? If you do, then you know that at least YOU aren’t the one contributing to hatred and negativity.

I’m proud of my sudden maturity these last few months, and some of the posts in the past that I have written are just so… negative. I won’t delete them, because they are memories and they show me growing as a person, but I will continue to grow. I hope you are with me on this. I hope we can work together.

So, I decided to write a post of a simple 10 things that make me happy. I highly encourage you to do the same, and if you read this, comment below (or even write a post) about 10 things that make you happy. I’d absolutely LOVE to read them. 🙂


  1. Nature. This one is a no brainer if you know me. When I’m in nature, I’m truly myself. I don’t feel the stress and negativity of modern city life. I feel serene and in the moment.
  2. Animals. Animals never cease to make me smile. They make me love the earth and all that it holds. They show me that life can be innocent and beautiful.
  3. Video games. They let me fill a role in a fantasy world where I can just escape. Whether I am kicking butt while being the intelligent Lara Croft or talking to Cortana in Halo, I am having fun.
  4. Anime. I have been an anime lover for only 2 years but it feels like a long time. When I watch anime I feel like I’m being immersed into a whole new culture. I learn a lot and laugh a lot as well.
  5. Sunny days. Now that it’s summer, I’m going to see a lot of these, which is so great.
  6. Chai tea. Simple, but magical.
  7. Cooking. Making things with my own two hands and then enjoying them is such a great feeling.
  8. YouTube. There are so many YouTubers that radiate so much positivity, and they make me smile.
  9. Hiking. Where I live, it is so beautiful and full of forests.
  10. Helping others. These aren’t in order, but helping others and seeing them thrive just makes me know my purpose in this world.

Thank you very much for reading. I can’t wait to read yours. 🙂

Volunteering at Animal Sanctuaries

So as most of you know, I am vegan. Not plant-based (vegan DIET,) but vegan. I have nothing to do with the exploitation and torture of animals. (No animal meat or products, as well as no animal clothing like wool, leather, or fur, and no products that are tested on animals.)

I feel like part of the vegan journey involves meeting some of the animals you save daily and helping them and their caretakers. That is why I decided to volunteer at some farm sanctuaries. The first one I went to was located in Silverton, Oregon.

It was a little bit of a drive as I live in Portland, but it was well worth it.

So, me, my mother, and sister drove all the way there, and embarrassingly, we were a bit late. (My mother is slow at getting ready…) The owner welcomed us kindly and showed us around. The farm must have been more than 20 acres. It was beautiful. They had over 10 goats, many chickens and roosters, turkeys, cows, a cat, and ducks.

My family started off helping muck out the stables and replacing the floor with fresh hay. It was a little difficult for me because I have bad allergies, but it was so worth it to see how happy the ducks were when they got to go into their new and clean room. I also collected the duck eggs from the ground and we placed them into a bucket. I will state here that I’m not sure if they sold the eggs or threw them away, but from the looks of it, I think they were selling them. While I am in love with this sanctuary, as a vegan, I will state that I do not support that. Not just because it’s “cruel to the ducks” but because it is cruel to the consumers. Eggs, as most people know by now, are not healthy, in fact they contribute to obesity and heart disease because of the high amount of cholesterol.With that being said, I do not support the selling of eggs, especially if this is a vegan sanctuary. (The animals were saved from the meat, dairy, and egg industry, and the owners are vegan.)

After that, I washed some feed bowls, and then we were free to pet and play with the animals. It was incredible being so close to the animals. I just felt such a connection as a vegan. I felt so proud to say that I am helping these animals, and that because of vegans, animals are cared about, and worth something.

I also got to be about 3 inches away from a turkey that was supposed to be for Thanksgiving dinner. It saddened me because seeing him in person was so touching. He was absolutely beautiful, and the fact that somebody wanted to harm him was beyond cruel. They kept making a “thumping” noise in their throats to get my attention. It was adorable.

Lastly, my favorite part of the visit happened. I told one of the owners that I read on their website that they have cows and a bull. I politely asked if I may see them, because my absolute favorite animals are cows. She said, “Of course! Just call Hershey’s name, and he will probably come to you.” We walked over to the cow pasture, and there he was. I was so happy to see him. Hershey was rescued from the dairy industry. He was ripped away from his mother at birth so that humans can drink his mother’s milk, and he was to be sold for veal. Luckily, a kind-hearted soul purchased him for $7.50 and sent him to the farm sanctuary. Hearing his story, and seeing him in person really changed me. I was so proud to be vegan in that moment. He slowly walked over to us after some coaxing, and we fed him some hay from his trough. Hershey had the sweetest eyes I’ve ever seen. I was so happy.

I went home feeling positive and proud to be vegan.

The next week, I decided that I wanted to check out another animal sanctuary in Oregon because it was so much fun. I found another one located closer this time, in Newburg, Oregon. I RSVPed and went there the very next day. I was, once again, amazed at the beauty of the countryside. It was around 30 acres, which was so great. This sanctuary had goats, cows, chickens, turkeys, geese, alpacas, a peacock, and some sheep. We arrived, and it was a bit hot that day. We were greeted by a very kind woman, and she showed us how to rinse and wash the feed bowls and pools for the geese. After doing that for 30-45 minutes (in the extreme heat might I add) we were free to pet and socialize with the animals. Of course, I had to go see the cows. My sister and I walked over, and we were greeted by some beautiful bulls and a few cows. They were all right in front of us, eating at their trough. I grabbed some food and started feeding them, and I pet them. They were so sweet. I must have spent 20 minutes just petting them when I realized I was the only one there. I bid farewell to the cows (reluctantly) and then walked over to where my sister was petting the goats. On the way there, I saw silky chickens for the first time. And they were beautiful! After socializing with the animals for a while, we finally went home.

Today I was supposed to go back to the Newburg sanctuary, but I had a ton of work to do so I decided to stay home. My sister and mother are there having fun while I write this.

In the end, I found new meanings to my life, and the joy that I felt seeing and helping these animals cannot be explained, although I tried. If you are vegan, vegetarian, or willing to learn, I highly recommend you look up a local sanctuary. You definitely won’t regret it.

Thank you for reading.

I am proud to be vegan

I noticed that some vegans I have met are actually afraid to call themselves vegan. Maybe they are afraid of being bullied or ridiculed. Or maybe they don’t want to be known as a “pretentious” psycho vegan. While I understand where they are coming from, it insults me, as a vegan, that this lifestyle is something to be ashamed of.

One time, I was at Whole Foods with my mother, and the cashier was ringing up our items. The cashier noticed that everything was vegan. What I love about Whole Foods employees is that they actually know about veganism and almost every single one that I’ve met is either trying it out or transitioning, which is amazing. However, this lady was saying that she is taking “baby steps” when trying out veganism, because apparently, “the food isn’t that great.” She says to the vegan. I was honestly confused. Vegan food is amazing. It is actually normal food. Hot dogs, burgers, pizza, sandwiches, burritos, etc. Except everything is not made from an animal. Woah! Excuse me if food made from plants is gross! Because animals are SO much tastier. Mmm. (Oh wait! Animals aren’t food.)

Anyways, my mom actually said that she was “trying out the plant-based diet” when she is VEGAN! Why is she so afraid to use the word vegan? She doesn’t eat meat, eggs, or dairy. She buys cruelty-free products, and she doesn’t buy clothing made from animals. (She does have some leather shoes, but they were from before she was vegan.) I was shocked. I said to the cashier, “Well, I’m fully vegan.” And the guy bagging the groceries literally said, “Well, I prefer to be called plant-based, because I don’t want to be a part of that vegan dogma.” I was about to rip his hair out. Does he even know what vegan means? The cashier stood there confused, and my mom grew tense because she assumed I would speak my mind to this ignorant idiot. I held my tongue because I was sick and tired of arguing.

Vegans are hated a lot in society. We are hated because we do the thing everyone dreads. We call out the flaws of others, and educate people about the truth. Okay, not all vegans do that, but the vegans who truly care about others do. We want people to be healthy. We want people to be educated. Some people are more open than others. Some people are surprisingly receptive, while others are immature and disrespectful. (You don’t want to know how many times I’ve heard “Mmm bacon.”)

I will admit, sometimes veganism can start arguments between friends and family members, and it can be quite dreadful. My mom took a while to warm up to veganism, but in the end she became vegan, which is something I never expected.

However, my dad HATES anything vegan. He even wanted me to be banned from saying that word. He is one of those meat-eaters who LOVE to stay in the dark about things. He will tune out anything when it comes to food. He actually told me that he would rather die of heart disease and eat meat than live a long life with veganism. (On average, vegans live 30 years longer than meat-eaters.) I mean, if that’s not brainwashed, I don’t know what is. The saddest part is, he doesn’t know how much he is torturing his body. Meat causes cancer, heart disease, diabetes, etc. Veganism can REVERSE cancers and heart disease, if the disease/cancer is caught in time. Don’t believe me? Check out The China Study by Dr. Campell. (That is an online PDF of the book. It discusses the health benefits of veganism.)

In the end, the word vegan symbolizes peace, and love, towards every living animal. Veganism should always be worn proudly. I don’t know where I’d be without veganism. Veganism shaped me into the person I am today. I am now a more compassionate and educated human being, and everyone has the chance to be one too. Veganism is something that anybody can do! You have the power.

Thanks for reading.


My Period Story

A period is something that most women have to suffer once a month. I debated making a post like this because 1. my experiences are very personal, 2. I’m not sure if anybody would even be interested, and 3. most people seem revolted by the word period when it’s not used to describe a dot at the end of a sentence.

Well, in the end I decided that I should make this post for people who are either new to their period, curious about my experiences, or maybe you are having troubles.

I guess I should state that I have dysmenorrhea. Before you think it’s some strange disease, what it really is, according to the google definition, is: painful menstruation, typically involving abdominal cramps. This put me in the unusual category for women who experience periods. I didn’t just experience cramps, I experienced excruciating pain. Some of the symptoms included:

  1. Dizziness and even fainting
  2. Frequent vomiting
  3. Extreme menstrual cramps
  4. Heavy flow
  5. Inability to walk or sometimes even move (I am not trying to be dramatic)
  6. Thus, I couldn’t go anywhere for the first few days

It all started around age 14. I was watching The Pursuit of Happiness with my younger sister when I started to feel very sick and dizzy. My cramps started to get worse and worse by the second. I slowly got up and ran to the bathroom. I felt like throwing up but I didn’t. Confused, I laid on my bed in pain for about half an hour. I was too weak to try to do anything, and I weakly tried to tell my sister about the pain but she didn’t believe me.

The pain went in phases. First, it would start off kind of dull and achey, and then full on pain for about 6-12 hours. Then there wouldn’t be any more pain for the rest of the week, besides the occasional ache. It doesn’t seem bad when I describe it like this, but the pain was so unbearable that I was positive that I’ve never experienced pain like that ever. Multiple times I was in so much pain that I tried to contact the police. I didn’t because A. I was too weak to find the phone, and B. my mother would’ve gotten angry.

So, this went on for about a year, and I missed school so frequently because of the pain that I was almost truant. In total I lost about 30 days of school. Finally I decided that this wasn’t normal, and that I should go to the doctor. My doctor then diagnosed me with dysmenorrhea, and prescribed me with birth control. As you probably know, birth control does a variety of things. It can help with severe acne, severe menstrual cramps (obviously why I got it) and of course, it can help to prevent pregnancies. (Not that I needed that.) My mom allowed me to have it but as soon as we got home, she hid it and said that it “wasn’t safe.” I wasn’t angry at first, but once my next period came around, I was furious. She couldn’t understand the pain that I experienced, but I guess she was just trying to make sure I “didn’t get cancer,” according to some article that she had read. Actually, birth control prevents ovarian cancer.

So, with pain and no birth control, I learned to live with the pain. Sure, she purchased some “homeopathic remedies” but of course, they weren’t nearly as strong as birth control would’ve been.

Finally, after 2 years of pain, I went vegan. I didn’t go vegan because of this, I actually went for health and ethical reasons. But the best thing ever happened to me.

When my period came around, there was no pain. No cramps, no dizziness, no nothing. I was so shocked and ecstatic. I had heard stories that veganism was good for menstrual cramps but I didn’t quite believe them… until it happened to me.

Month after month went by, and still no pain. As my diet went on, however, and I ate slightly less vegetables and whole based foods, I experienced more cramps. I still experience cramps to this day, but not NEARLY as bad as I used to.

I will be forever grateful for the vegan diet and lifestyle. Who knew veganism had so many benefits?

Thanks for reading.



Morning Thoughts

Today is a cloudy and quite chilly day in Oregon. Everything is still and calm. There are no cars, there are no leaf blowing-gardeners, and the only sound I can hear is the brief flow of the wind or the calming sound of geese flying south for the winter.

Days like this make me ponder life in general, and days like this make me appreciate what I have. I have an amazing family, and I live in a beautiful state. I am so glad that I moved here. Being in California was nice, but tiring, because the people were often negative and judgmental. (Including the old me!)

Everyone in Portland is unique, nice, and open. They aren’t afraid to tell you that they shop at Goodwill, they aren’t shy to show you their third tattoo that they got last Saturday, and they definitely aren’t afraid to give you a smile, even if you’re just a stranger walking by, down the street.

I feel like I’m in a place where I finally fit in. I can talk about my love for anime or video games without being stared at, I can wear dark purple-red lipstick and actually get compliments instead of whispers, and I can chat about veganism and the environment without being called a pretentious hipster.

I live in an area where they celebrate veganism, feminism, they fight for LGBT rights, and they accept everyone.

I am glad that I got to experience Portland. I will not be leaving it anytime soon.


Thanks for reading.

My Thoughts of the Day

I have been kind of down lately, and I think it’s due to the rainy weather. Don’t get me wrong, I love rainy weather, I really do, but sometimes when I can’t go out to meditate or relax, I feel like I’m trapped in a box. Don’t be surprised reader when I say that I haven’t left my house for 5 days.

I’ve also noticed that the more I look at the news and how negative things are in the world, the more depressed I am. I really stand by the saying ignorance is bliss, and I believe it 100%. I don’t want to be ignorant, but at the same time, what if knowing all of these things makes me a completely pessimistic and negative person? (No offense, but that’s exactly how my father is.)

Should I give up trying to get into politics and just accept that there is no ideal society? I am already aware that humans are incredibly destructive, greedy, evil, and selfish, so why am I focusing all of my energy on helping them? I have already realized that there is no right or wrong side in politics. Both sides are good at different things, but both are ultimately wrong. When will people try to help things other than their own kind? How about the environment? How about the billions of animals that are killed yearly? We eat 9 times our human population (65 billion) in animals per year. I know this is a typical thing for a vegan to say, but when will we stop caring about ourselves? Honestly, I don’t think that will ever happen. People will continue to eat corpses, and although it doesn’t really sit well with me, what can I do?

Sometimes I feel so helpless, and I want to give up, but then I remember that even saving one animal’s life is enough to me. Even saving 1,100 gallons of water per day (by being vegan) is enough for me. I know that our human race will not end well, but maybe we deserve it. We have done nothing but bad for this planet…

America is going down the drain, and there are various excuses that people use. “Obama,” “Terrorists,” “Libtards,” etc. Why can’t you just accept that it was doomed from the start because humans only care about themselves?

Why can’t anyone accept that? Even I am not some innocent vegan saint. I may care about animals, but I don’t have a shred of sympathy for the human race. That is wrong too, and I know it, but who can stop me? Nobody is right in this world. There aren’t any right sides at all on Earth.

So what do I think people should do?

Do what makes you happy, because in the end, we will always be selfish creatures, and no human can be selfless. Just a fact. I used to disagree with everything I am saying now, but it took me a while to realize the truth.

I am still ignorant and naive, so I might change my mind later, but for now, these are my opinions.

Thank you for reading.