Shut Out That Negativity

So, I’d say I’m officially back from my internet break. I really missed blogging, and now that I’m back, I have so many fresh ideas to blog about.

After being offline for a while (no WordPress, Tumblr, Twitter, etc) I learned to do other things that I loved like photography/videography, cooking, meditating, enjoying nature, and being positive.

I noticed this only when I got back, but the internet can be so negative. YouTube is stuffed full with hate comments, everybody is complaining about the celebrity they hate, people are being murdered left and right on the news and I must say, the internet has been a really depressing place.

After learning this, I wanted to reach out to you. Make the internet a better place. Radiate positive vibes. Talk about things that make you smile. Encourage people to live in the moment and to enjoy life. Just go outside and breathe. There are so many things in life to love. This world that we live in is a beautiful thing. We humans just need to realize that. I know that humans will never get along, but can’t we just try? If you do, then you know that at least YOU aren’t the one contributing to hatred and negativity.

I’m proud of my sudden maturity these last few months, and some of the posts in the past that I have written are just so… negative. I won’t delete them, because they are memories and they show me growing as a person, but I will continue to grow. I hope you are with me on this. I hope we can work together.

So, I decided to write a post of a simple 10 things that make me happy. I highly encourage you to do the same, and if you read this, comment below (or even write a post) about 10 things that make you happy. I’d absolutely LOVE to read them. 🙂

 

  1. Nature. This one is a no brainer if you know me. When I’m in nature, I’m truly myself. I don’t feel the stress and negativity of modern city life. I feel serene and in the moment.
  2. Animals. Animals never cease to make me smile. They make me love the earth and all that it holds. They show me that life can be innocent and beautiful.
  3. Video games. They let me fill a role in a fantasy world where I can just escape. Whether I am kicking butt while being the intelligent Lara Croft or talking to Cortana in Halo, I am having fun.
  4. Anime. I have been an anime lover for only 2 years but it feels like a long time. When I watch anime I feel like I’m being immersed into a whole new culture. I learn a lot and laugh a lot as well.
  5. Sunny days. Now that it’s summer, I’m going to see a lot of these, which is so great.
  6. Chai tea. Simple, but magical.
  7. Cooking. Making things with my own two hands and then enjoying them is such a great feeling.
  8. YouTube. There are so many YouTubers that radiate so much positivity, and they make me smile.
  9. Hiking. Where I live, it is so beautiful and full of forests.
  10. Helping others. These aren’t in order, but helping others and seeing them thrive just makes me know my purpose in this world.

Thank you very much for reading. I can’t wait to read yours. 🙂

I want to live a fulfilling life

Throughout my teenage years, I struggled with social media.

It all started when I was 13 years old, and I just started to get into Facebook. (At the time, 2011-2012) it was very popular. I couldn’t stop checking it. I had to respond immediately to notifications, messages, and post frequently.

It was so entertaining to me, that I had better relationships through Facebook than ones in real life. After a while though, Facebook became less and less popular, and I now saw it as lame. So then I decided to get an Instagram. Another obsession began. I would constantly refresh the home page, post frequently, like photos, post, check, check, check. It was an endless cycle. I would spend a good 30-40 minutes every morning checking social media in bed.

Then came along Snapchat and Twitter. The same thing happened with those apps. At one point I would spend an hour every morning just checking these apps. And did I learn anything valuable? Sometimes. But what do you consider valuable? Edited selfies? Sunrise/sunset photos? Breakfast acai bowls? Okay, these are all pretty to look at, but am I gaining any detailed or valuable information from this?

Once I asked myself these questions, I realized the truth. I realized that I was wasting my life. Essena O’neill (although controversial because of some internet bullies by the names of Nina and Randa) showed me the way. She helped me realize that life shouldn’t be lived totally online. It is, of course, great to read blogposts and watch YouTube videos for fun, but what I do is try to make sure that I am gaining valuable information from it.

Now, I still have social media accounts like Tumblr, WordPress, and YouTube, but I try to limit my time so that I can live in real life.

And yes, I do play a ton of video games, and I’m working on that. I guess I don’t feel as bad because there are studies that (depending on the game) can actually be good for the brain. Just as long as there is problem solving and thinking involved. (My favorite types of games.)

I guess what I’m trying to say here is that you should give your mind a break once in a while. You will feel fresher and more alive. Ever since I started limiting my social media, I felt like I could finally breathe and not live like a social media-obsessed zombie.

I ask you to try this. See how it works for you. Limit your social media, narrow down who you follow to meaningful posts, and take eye breaks.

Trust me, I have terrible eyesight, and I guess this is karma for staring at screens for hours everyday for 4 years.

Thank you very much for reading.

Photo credit: here

Stormy Day Thoughts

Today it rained hard outside. I shivered to the bone. The air was cold, but had a slight fragrance of trees and flowers. I smiled, looking out of my car window, because oh, how I love the rain.

I love the sound of thunder.

It makes my heart race.

It makes me jump.

It makes me feel like curling up into a ball while reading manga with a cup of tea.

It makes me feel like blogging.

Oh how I love storms.

Good Morning!

Hello and good morning! It’s a beautiful day today where I live. The birds are chirping, the sun is shining, and, as usual, everywhere I look is so green.

I am going to be mindful today. I am so appreciative for what I have. The earth has provided me with the most beautiful scenery.

I hope you are appreciating the nature that surrounds you. Today I’m going to stay home and read a nice book and have a hot cup of tea.

I will also be writing on my novel, and if it turns out well, I will post the next chapter.

Thanks for reading.

Living in the Present

I will admit, it’s hard not to think about things that happened in the past, or things that will happen in the future. That is something that most humans think about in our society. However, not only do we think about the past, we dwell on it, and let it take over our lives at times.

For example, something might have happened in the past to make you really angry, and you just couldn’t ever let it go. You dwell on it for months, years, maybe even decades. Sometimes, that memory can be so strong that you just never forget about it. The memory can be a good or a bad thing, or a bit of both. If somebody that you loved died, you might dwell on the past, thinking about their life and the memories that you shared together. It can be really heartbreaking to dwell on past memories.

It is not always so easy to forget about the past. A woman who is raped can almost never forget what happened to her. She can be traumatized, and scarred, and it is all because of that one memory.

However, I’m here to tell you that it’s okay to dwell on the past, but don’t let it take over your life. I cannot speak for men and women that are raped, and I cannot speak for somebody who is dealing with a death of a loved one, because honestly, I know how hard it is to forget about the past. But,  we must move on. We are humans, and we choose our emotions, however hard it may seem. We have the ability to move on, or live, stuck in the past.

We can choose to turn our lives around. We can choose to make a change! As much as I sometimes resent the human race, I will admit that we are quite powerful in that way. Humans can be brave, and honest. Humans can be strong, and pull through. We all have the ability to be who we want to be, so we must live in the present!

In the end, the present is all that you have. Every moment of every day is right in front of you, and we must grasp that time and use it wisely. Do not waste your life in the past or in the future.

I feel very upset seeing so many people so stressed and depressed and I just want to say this, so this is post is for the people who dwell on the past or future.

Thanks for reading.

 

Why You Should Meditate

I’ve heard some people say that meditation is not for everyone, but I’d like to just disagree. I truly believe that everybody should meditate, regardless of religion, occupation, gender, social class, etc. We are all people, and we all need to give our minds a break.

Think about it this way. At every single waking hour of our entire lives, our brains are rapidly thinking and processing information. We are even thinking in our sleep (dreaming.) Our bodies may be resting, but our minds aren’t.

Why is this important? When your brain is constantly thinking, it can tend to work to hard, causing stress and anxiety. Meditation has been scientifically proven to reduce your stress and anxiety. Scientists have also noticed that a person who frequently meditates has more gray matter in their brain. How amazing is that?

I meditate to release stress, be in the moment, calm down and relax, and sometimes, to connect to God on a spiritual level. There are many benefits to meditation and many reasons to do it. Every time I feel angry or sad, I just meditate, and all of those negative feelings literally wash away. I feel like I just woke up, and I am at the start of my day again.

One of my favorite meditations is chakra meditation. (And no, it is not just for hippies.) Chakra meditation is a type of meditation that balances your chakras. You have seven chakras in your body, all serving different purposes, and when they are clouded with negative energy, they tend to produce negative affects on your life. No, you will not be perfect if you do this meditation, but it can create more positive energy that flows through your body.

Doing the chakra meditation was honestly one of the best experiences of my life. I don’t know what it was, but while meditating, I felt as if I was in a different dimension. I wasn’t sitting in my room, I was in the clouds, I was in space, I was one with the universe. I definitely recommend you try it. There are many guided chakra meditations on YouTube. At the end of the meditation, I opened my eyes, and for a moment, I had forgotten where I was. I felt like I was refreshed and vibrant. I don’t know if I’m being dramatic right now, but it was definitely a feeling that’s hard to describe.

Lastly, meditation made me a better person. Meditation taught me how to control my anger and sadness, and it continues to help me grow as a person.

Thank you for reading.

Pain

The screams. The cries. The tears ran down my face. I went in and out of consciousness. Where was I? Oh, right. The memories started to flow back to me; one painful memory after the other.

Our homes, scattered, burned, crashed, all just a memory. The blood drooled slowly down my forehead. What are they going to do with us? What do they want with us?

I heard the screeches again.

I heard the cries, the screams, the sound of bones being crushed slowly. Help.

Somebody help me.

I smelled fear in the air. I smelled Death just around the corner. He’s ready to take me, drag me, pull me, out of my body. He’s ready to smile at me and swoop me out of this life. Doesn’t my life matter? Death, give me a chance.

I slipped in and out of consciousness multiple times. I don’t remember how many.

I can’t remember them, but then again I don’t want to.

Suddenly, something as cold as ice kicks me, crushing my rib, and grabs me by my hair. I yelped in agony, afraid of the seconds coming next. The thing then kicked me, bit me, and screeched so violently that it shivered me to the bone.

Wait, is this thing laughing? It laughed again, kicking me, poking me, and threw me forcefully into a crate. I screamed for help. For somebody. Nobody comes.

I woke up again, and took in my new surroundings. I was crammed with people! I asked them, “Where are they taking us?” But nobody answered. A man has convulsions in a corner. A woman with deep colored skin cries, screams, and pulls out her hairs, ripping them, one by one. I heard the screeches again. I covered my ears, my eyes, hoping for it to be over soon. Somebody. Please come.

I woke up again. I smelled the smell of metal. Or was it blood?

I slowly looked up. I saw hundreds of people!

People!

“Help!” I screamed, as hoarse as my throat feels. Then I noticed something else.

They are not… alive.

They are hung by their feet. Their flesh drooled off of their bodies. Their bodies are limp, absent from life. Blood drools out of various cuts and slashes on their bodies. Guts hung from their stomachs. I vomited violently multiple times. Bodies everywhere.

When will this nightmarish dream end? I screamed again. Nobody comes.

The next time I woke up, I was moving. Wait, somebody is moving me. I was being pushed in a crate, crammed with corpses. Their bodies reek of Death.

I try to find my perpetrators. I looked around the torture chamber. I noticed something moving out of the corner of my eye. I saw something that I knew in my 10 years of life I had never seen before. It towered over me. Small and deep-set black eyes pierced into me. It’s body was covered in blood. It opened it’s mouth and bore it’s razor bloody teeth. I shut my eyes and tried to erase it from my memory. I couldn’t open my eyes again. I just couldn’t.

I heard the screech again, this time angry. I felt a sudden sharp pain sting through my body. I opened my eyes to see It again.

It slammed by body into a crate. The crate started moving. Enormous metal double doors opened, and a bright light burned my eyes. Looking up I saw the sky, and looking down I saw mud everywhere. I looked at the sky. It was pure blue. I forced myself to only look at the sky. If this would be my last moment, I would like to look at something familiar, something pure.

I started to hear faint voices. They were screaming, yelping, shrieking, squealing, and crying. I started to get closer, and closer to the voices.

I was ripped out of the brief safety that was my crate, and shoved into a metal tube. My head stuck out of the end, and I was upside down.

I took a deep breath. And then it was over.

 

 

I hope you enjoyed my first short story. This is actually based on a true story, if you look at the animal’s perspective. 65 billion animals are slaughtered this way every year. To them, we are monsters. I don’t want to be a monster. Stand up for animals and make a change. Be a saint, not the devil.