Something that is strange about humans is that we change a lot. Some people change more than others, and some people don’t seem to change at all. Some changes are more noticeable than others, and some changes can cause conflict.
Humans are always changing. Physically, emotionally, and mentally. I am one of the many people that had quite a drastic change, from my personality to my physical appearance.
Throughout my sophomore and freshman years, I was quite different from the present me. I was obsessed with my hair, how I looked, makeup, clothing, you name it. There is nothing wrong with liking any of these things, but I was obsessed with them. This is not a positive thing, in my experience, and despite getting attention from boys at school, I was still insecure. (Probably because a woman’s worth is not based on male attention.)
The old me (you could say) was shallow and naive. I am still naive, but I am definitely not shallow. I used to be obsessed with YouTube beauty gurus, and watch makeup tutorials daily. (Maybe 3 a day.) Back then it seemed completely normal, but looking back, that’s insane. No teenage girl should waste her life on perfecting her looks. It’s just not possible, and it is very harmful to her mental health.
In a way, I blame society, and I’m not just looking to point the finger. It was society. Society told me that I need to get male attention, I need to look good in order to have friends, I need to focus mostly on my appearance, when the same cannot be said for males. Males do have expectations, but obviously, coming from a feminist, women are the ones seen as objects.
So I guess you could say that the old me was a shallow teenage girl that was brainwashed by society, and the present me is one of the few women trying to break society’s standards.
Not many women go a DAY without makeup (let alone a week, or a month), not many women can confidently say that they like the way they look without makeup, and it’s sad that so many women base their worth on what a male thinks of them.
I am proud of the present me, and I hope that I will continue to grow and change, for the better. I am confident in myself, and nothing someone can say can bring me down anymore. Words used to really get to me, but I learned from it, and I realized society’s faults.
I guess my point is to try to focus on being someone you could be proud of. Be someone that is confident, because in the end, you only have yourself!
Thank you for reading.